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Disciple the Nations Zambia

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Jesus, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Unity, Unreached People on June 29, 2009 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

Teach them the Way they should go…

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Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: “God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I’ll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age.” And the Lord commanded us to go into all the earth and teach them the way they should go… Matthew 28:19-20

Here we are Heiko and I, living in the middle of Africa, a dream from childhood now realized by both of us. This place is addictive. Come only once and you will be gloriously ruined forever. You will dream for this place as if all of creation began here and you long to return back to the beginning.

At the same time we are surrounded by poverty, starvation, sickness, disease, hopelessness, ancestral worship of other gods, witchcraft, and multitudes of every form of total deception. It reminds us daily, very boldly, how blessed we are to know the truth and to be set free. To experience this kind of life around us and to sit in the dirt with those in it, is worth more than all the gold in the world. We are honored to hold the key that unlocks all bondages for every person’s prison, every circumstance, and every lie of the enemy. It is our blessed responsibility to give the key to all people that the Lord places in front of us. For Heiko and me they happen to be just outside of our gate. During the week we lead the poverty stricken, hungry, orphaned young men and women who have been held captive by the lies’ of the enemy into our home and we feed them and disciple them in love and in truth.

Right now we have 8 disciples. Aka, is a young man searching for a purpose and hope after an accident that left him paraplegic. His little brother joins us now too. Kefas, is young man living in a shack, with several small siblings, and no clothes but those on his back. John is living with his sister and with a serious drinking problem that is destroying his life. Nasilele, a young man searching desperately for the truth as he raises his 2 year old daughter. There is Cleopatra, the girl that works at the photo copy shop where I print my disciple teachings, she reads every word asking each week for more.  Unike is our house keeper; she is a single mom and daughter to an Episcopal Pastor, on fire for the Lord.  Then there is Peter our gardener, father of 6 and caretaker of his wife, her sister, and the sisters 5 children, and his mother.

Each week they come hungry for the word. Each week they are set free more and more. They’re stories and testimonies minister to us as we minister to them.

Here is Aka’s testimony, may you be blessed!

Aka is our adopted brother and is very special to us. He has found new hope since becoming paraplegic. Daily he comes to our home where we assist him with physical therapy. He designed a standing device which allows blood to circulate into his dead limbs.  He is constantly doing research on the internet at our home for new surgical procedures that may help him walk one day as well as praying for God’s healing to manifest in him.

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WHO I AM

I am Kapelwa Akatumwa, Zambian born on the 22 of November 1982 from the family of four, two guys and two ladies. We just lived as a family under one shelter for short. This is because my father died, when I was 1year 8months and my grandparents took me from my mum, who died four year later. For this reason I never called any person father, and never had chance to enjoy motherly love. For my sisters and brother, each one was taken by other relatives.

MY EDUCATION

I did my junior and senior secondary under hardships for this my grades were not good to get me a place into university, but managed to go college, and did a certificate in accounting, I would like to finish the accounting course for me to get a better job or if I can have an outer native of keeping myself such as having a employment or running a business. But talking of employment, it’s not that easy because employers would prefer physically able boded persons to disabled person (like me) which is African way. Being a determined person as I am, I would have made it. But as the common saying goes “the dog plan is not the owner’s plan”

In the year 2005 applied to join Zambia police and was accepted. The training was to start month end of December 2005, in the same month I got involved in the road traffic accident in which I suffered series of injuries including spinal cord injury, therefore partial paralysis and now wheelchair based.

AFTER THE ACCIDENT

The accident happened at a place which is away from my home town.  We were four of us in the car and only I had serious injuries, such that I was half dead.  I was taken to the nearby hospital where, I spent 7 days in coma with just a friend taking care of me. We had nothing on us since the local people got away with all our belonging which is a common trend in my country, whenever an accident occurs. After which I was transferred to the bigger hospital. During all this time my relatives did not know what had happened to me or where I was.

It was only the time when I reach at the bigger hospital that I was able to open my eyes, talk and hear. This was the time I was told of what had happened.

From 8th December 2005, I have been the hospital boy up to beginning September 2007. I was in the hospital for such a long time partly because of the pressure sores and partly because my family members didn’t want to take up on the responsibility of patient (pressure sores) and physically disabled person.

When I come out off the hospital my aunt (my father’s young sister) put me in her servant’s quarters, where I live up to this time. Thanks to her I’m out of the hospital.

LIFE IN THE WHEELCHAIR.

During the time I was in the hospital, my relationship with God was not good at all as I couldn’t understand what I was going through and I realy had many questions, like where is God to let me go through this alone, why did it happened to me and why me only since we where four of us in the that car.

During this time, I never wanted any one to tell me that ‘God loves me, that why he saved me from that accident’.

To me death was going to be better than life in the hospital. This was because:- I can no longer walk, I can’t be independent, as this is the time I was to be highly productive, and  lost most of my friends and  lost the employment opportunity.

MY COMING BACK TO GOD.

All this time many people talked to me about God, but I had made up my mind. But things changed when I met a friend called Heiko, who had time to listen to what had happened to me and then invited me to a live television church program. Then after he told me about the love for God, and two weeks later he took me with him for church service and from then I have been going with him to church with the difficulties of accessing places with the wheelchair, he has been there for me and shows me that, even if I am disabled some people still look at me as a person and I look at him as my real brother.        

 

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Miracles of Healing

Posted in Africa, Healing, Love, Miracles, Missions, Revelation, Unreached People, Visions and Dreams on June 3, 2009 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

Easter Miracle

DSC04450Victory! On Easter Sunday Jesus arose from the dead and showed the disciples that He had conquered.  He took upon all sickness, disease, suffering, poverty, and every other bondage, replacing it with complete freedom and eternal life. Later He ascended into heaven and sent His Holy Spirit to dwell inside every believer. This is the Spirit of God that breathed all life into existence. God spoke and created the heavens and the earth with the power of His word. His same Spirit and power lives in us and He even gave us a user manual to guide us along…

With that being said, it astonishes me how the enemy can trick us to believe we are still sick, weak and powerless prey. It happened to me.

Three months ago I was diagnosed with precancerous cells in my cervix along with discovering I had lumps in my breasts. I had even lost 15 pounds unexplainably over the past 6 months. Immediately the enemy went to work in my mind. I became depressed, the “what if” questions wouldn’t stop buzzing in my head, I felt hopeless and scared. It is probably one of the worst moments in a woman’s life to face. And here I was in the middle of Africa facing it.

Medical care in a third world country is not an option one wants for a condition as this. Heiko and I prayed as I went through the daily emotions of the unknown. We researched doctors who wanted to fly me into the nearest country with surgical facilities and cut into me and test what they found and send me on my way in a matter of days. That is just how things are done in this part of the world where care is limited to what is available. You must take what you can get here. With limited health insurance in Africa I was stuck to options here, so all the missionaries in town and my church and family back home began to pray for me.

Revelation 2On Easter Sunday Heiko began to pray for me. I closed my eyes and asked Jesus why this had to happen to me. I suddenly had a vision. I saw Jesus put His hand on my stomach and a beautiful warm light flooded my body. He spoke to me and said, “My daughter your faith has healed you.” I woke up from the vision and could not move. I remember thinking, my faith? I have doubted for two months in despair. Then the Lord reminded me, it was by faith that I received Him and through Him I received His Spirit, the same spirit that breathed life into existence. And within me all sickness was already conquered on the cross. All I need to do is receive what is already given to me, within me and speak the power of the word over me. 
I Am already healed!

That week I was so excited I went around testifying to all the missionaries and friends that I AM healed! I could not wait to go to a doctor for confirmation. Within days I began to feel better and gain some weight. I spoke the power of the truth over myself that I AM healed, Christ did it all! I miraculously stumbled upon a breast surgeon in South Africa who won woman of the year for her contributions to breast cancer awareness and new medical discoveries. She had opened three breast clinics in SA and worked 6 days a week 8am-8pm dedicated to her patients. I phoned her private practice and she said she could get me in. Even more of a miracle, my Insurance approved it! Within one week Heiko and I were on a plane and excited for the good news to come.

IMG_3661It was the best trip ever! South Africa is not known for its safety, but the area we were in was beautiful. The hotel was good, friendly, and in a blocks distance drive to the hospital. The Hospital was better than I had ever imagined for Africa! The care of the doctors was tremendous and compassionate; I wasn’t just another patient taking up time. I told the doctor I was there to confirm the Lord had healed me. She said praise the Lord and did her exam. She scheduled me for 3 doctors, an ultrasound and lab work all in 3 days. Each doctor was wonderful to me and at the end of it all I was diagnosed without any cutting and with NO cancer anywhere!!! Even the cancer cells in my cervix were completely gone!!!

We arrived home like two kids in a candy store. We were so excited to confirm to everyone the too good to be true news! It was like we had a new beginning again and the enemy had been reminded he was already defeated by the beautiful resurrection power of Christ! Praise God for His mighty love and power that lives in us!

May each of you be encouraged to begin claiming what is yours in Christ Jesus. Begin declaring and speaking it over yourself daily until you see it manifest. We have the same spirit living in us that spoke all of creation into existence. We must have faith in the word and speak life and the promises of God over ourselves, especially when the enemy tries to deceive us with despair. We must use this power given to us by our heavenly Father so the enemy can be reminded he has already been defeated and has no power over us anymore. Stand strong fellow warriors of light and speak the living word into being and watch as the Lord prepares the way to your victory…

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Hope Multiplied By 15…………………………Window Into Africa 2008!

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Jesus, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Photography, Revelation, Travel, Uncategorized, Unity, Unreached People, Visions and Dreams on March 30, 2009 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

 Greetings from Zambia!!!

In a time like today people all around the world are faced with the question, “will I still have enough?”…

Can you imagine standing in front of completely empty shelves at the grocery store??

That’s what is happening here right now..

The cost of the remaining food is sky rocketing and there are numerous Zimbabweans lining up at our grocery stores buying out entire shelves of food because they don’t have any food or clean water in their country, just trying to survive.  Meanwhile here all major income sectors, mining, hunting, and tourism have decreased dramatically causing businesses to close daily.  While employed, one employee’s income feeds a total of 15 people in their extended family, now he needs hope multiplied by 15!

 More than ever people need the too-good-to-be-true news of the gospel!  

In times like this we have to keep the eyes of our hearts focused on the finished work of Cross, remembering that we are Christ’s hands and feet that He sent to reach out to those who are in need.    

For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.’… “And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’   Matthew 25:35-36 & 40

We are prayerfully thankful for all of the supporters back in the states who faithfully give offerings to us monthly.  Your faithfulness allows us to continue to spread the gospel here in Zambia and bring hope in a time when it is needed more than ever!


Here is the link to my 2008 Window Into Africa photo gallery. May you be abundantly blessed as you view the lives you helped us to reach in 2008 with your prayers, financial support, and faithfulness

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God Bless,

Heiko & Anita In Africa

 

How Great Is The Love The Father Has Lavished On Us…1 John 3:1

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Jesus, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Photography, Revelation, Travel, Unity, Unreached People, Visions and Dreams on December 12, 2008 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

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Heiko Oliver Held & Anita Marie Phelps
Married on 26th of November, 2008
Livingstone Island, Zambia

 

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How do you explain?

How do you describe?

A love that goes from east to west

And runs as deep as it is wide?

 

You know all our hopes.

Lord you know all our fears.

And words can not express the love we feel,

But we long for you…to hear.

 

So listen to our hearts

And hear our spirits sing.

A song of praise

From those you have redeemed.

 

We will use the words we know

To tell you what an awesome God you are.

But words are not enough

To tell you of our love.

So listen to our hearts…

 

If words can fall like rain

From these lips of mine.

If I have a thousand years

I will still run out of time

 

So if You listen to my heart,

Every beat will say,

Thank you for the life,

Thank you for the truth,

Thank you for the way.
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The Kiss
 By Heiko Oliver Held

My whole world is reduced to one kiss…
I am kissing the bride.

I have only one sense remaining – the glorious feeling – of her lips on mine,

soft, very gentle, yet demanding, hoping.

 

The darkness behind my closed eyes is complete. Only feeling remains. Her body close to mine, her arms around me.

We are holding on to each other tight – very close from the edge where the Zambezi river usually drops with great thunder into the Batoka gorge.

 

We are on Livingstone Island, called so in honour of his name, yet no water surrounding it now in this November.

Eleven days (and 103 years..) later after David Livingstone arrived and spoke his magnificent words:  “.. as beautiful as flying angels, looking into heaven.”

I truly am  – right now in heaven here on earth.

Because my whole world is reduced to: The only sensual feeling of this kiss.

Time fades, nothing else matters. My being, my whole self is reduced to – nothing.

Just then my bride hears Gods voice in her heart, saying “everything!” , and all I feel is her lips gently removing from mine, uttering softly only one word: “everything”.

 

And in my rejoicing heart the eternal equation of life unfolds:

 

Jesus plus my nothing equals everything!

 

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Wedding Day Video coming soon!

Taken up to Heaven

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Jesus, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Photography, Revelation, Travel, Unreached People, Visions and Dreams with tags on July 13, 2008 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

Hear the voice of the Father… don’t let anything hold you back…Father… He is calling you…come up here, come up now…my Beloved. (These are the words of a song by Jason Upton…they ushered me in to the presence…)

 

I heard Jesus speak to me, “ Our Father has created you for me.  You must give yourself to me wholeheartedly. As my Bride, the one I love so much.  I am so in love with you, passionately, intimately.  You are my chosen one.  I have chosen you to be my Bride out of all the Princesses.  I have chosen you to be my Bride, My One, My Chosen.  I am so madly in love with you, you are all I can see, and you are the most beautiful.  I am your completeness, your full measure of Love filling you and over pouring, never ending.  You are my delight, my Queen, My one Holy passion that the Father has sealed with a Holy kiss.  You are My Pure Joy… My Reward for My faithfulness on the cross.  My Beloved.  So come up here to me My Bride, My lover of My soul, come up here to me and stand with me before the Father. Be bound to me for eternity as your Husband, your lover, your intimate passion and desire, your true provider, your all and all, your everything, your completeness in the Father.  You are My Beloved.  I have made you beautiful Forever.”

 

Then suddenly He took me up into the Heavens before the throne of the Father…I stood before him in a white flowing gown.  He was in a white fluid shirt and pants.  He wore a golden crown of garland.  He said, “ I have been waiting for you all your life.  I watched you from the beginning in your mother’s womb.  I took you into our secret garden when you were a child and I watched you grow.  I was there with you every second of your life.  You are so beautiful; you have always been so beautiful.  I have been so in love with you as I waited for you to grow.”  He placed a beautiful crown of white flowers intertwined with gold and green garland on my head.  “I have crowned you with beauty and splendor that can never fade.  I have crowned you beautiful… forever.  You have always been beautiful, you could never have been tarnished.”  He gently touched my face as I touched His and He kissed me on the forehead. My eyes gently closed to linger in that moment a little longer, to feel his Holy lips on my forehead.  I fall to my knees and He joins me, never for one second looking away.  “I have waited a long time for this moment,” says Jesus.  “I am with you always, I can never leave you.”  We stood up and He began to dance with me before the Father.  He said, “ I have placed all the desires in your heart in our secret place when you were a child.  I filled you with all of your hope and love.  You have been promised to me from the Father even before you were born.  I have loved you all along.  You are My Holy passion and one desire.  I love you my Beloved.”

 

 

I stood mesmerized before Him with the warmth of the Father looking upon us, filling us, overflowing.  There have never been ashes, you have been beautiful to me all along.  This is all I could see when I look at you, from the beginning before you were born, through your youth, until now and for eternity.  I have loved you so much that love is all I could ever see in you.  There is nothing you could do or nothing you have already done that could change that, nothing.  Come up here so I can heal all the scars with my love.  I fill them all with my love that is never ending and flowing and pouring onto you whenever you need it.  I am your full measure, your completeness, and your wholeness.  I am right here by your side for all eternity My Beautiful, My Beloved,” says the Lord.  “You can always come up here, I will be anxiously waiting for you.”

“Walk With Me,” says Jesus

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Jesus, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Photography, Travel, Unreached People, Visions and Dreams on July 7, 2008 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

Revelation: Key to the Kingdom of Heaven

I was praising and worshiping the Lord early one morning in the prayer hut.  I was all alone basking in the glory of the sun shining through as I looked down over the base and further to the ocean.  The sun reflected onto the water like molten silver.  As I sang praises to the Lord the beauty magnified and it felt like the molten silver turned into a luxurious oil that was suddenly covering my body, filling me with the Love of the Father.  With my hands raised in praise I heard the voice of Jesus say, “Walk with me into the garden.”  In my spirit I could feel the presence of Jesus standing right next to me, His love radiating from Him onto me like the molten love of the sea.

 

We began to walk out of the prayer hut into the garden that was dry and brown.  We walked to a bench and He said to me, “Sit with me here.”  I sat down and tucked my knees into my chest and gently rocked side to side as if Jesus was holding me and rocking me back and forth like a small child.  I spoke to Jesus and asked Him why did everything have to be dead, why couldn’t we just be transported into the Garden of Eden right now?  He replied to me, “We are.  Just focus on all the life in front of you.”  Suddenly I began to notice all the small daisies hiding in the weeds.  The colors began to magnify.  In an instant small butterflies appeared and were fluttering about the flowers.  I had to touch a flower to believe what I was seeing and I reached down and put my finger on a petal and a small butterfly landed on my finger.  Amazed, I began to look all around.  All I could see were the trees and leaves that were alive, the flowers and vines that crawled through the dead grass and weeds, the flowers blooming amongst the thicket.  The colors…they were all magnified like glistening gemstones.  I sat there speechless, mesmerized at the beauty of God’s love like a firework display before my eyes. 

 

Then Jesus spoke to me.  He said, “You can always enter into the Kingdom any time you want to, all you have to do is focus on what is alive in front of you.  Death will always be all around, but if you can seek what is alive with life, then you will begin to witness the Kingdom of Heaven manifest here on earth.”

 

Then He spoke again and said, “Come walk with me.”  I got up and began to walk with Jesus back to the prayer hut where I first heard His voice.  We stood once again overlooking the ocean.  He said, “ This is just a glimpse of how wide and deep the Father’s love really is.  And He created it just for you.  Just focus on what is alive.”  And suddenly I stood there weeping and Jesus voice was gone, but the presence of the Fathers Love filled me to overflowing.

 

It was Sasha and my last day in Pemba.  We sat and began to journal and the Lord revealed to me that He had given me the answer to my second prayer that we had prayed together when we came here.  We had asked the Lord to show us how to access ALL of the Kingdom of Heaven while we were here on earth.  Suddenly the Lord spoke. He said, “Here is a key to the Kingdom of Heaven, you have been given full access with this key.” 
Then Jesus showed me that I must ask Holy Spirit to birth in my spirit Belief, of the unseen.  I must speak and declare the promises of God out over my life as if it were really in front of me.  In time and faith, belief will be become manifest into existence.  The more I focus on life and the light of things instead of death and darkness I will begin to see more and more of the light of the Kingdom and less of the darkness of the world. The Kingdom of Heaven will manifest before my eyes right here on earth.  Or I should say, the veil of this world will fade away and I will see with the true eyes of the Kingdom instead of the blind eyes of this world. I must just Believe and speak it out, declaring it over my life in Faith.

As I journey to my next divine destination I hold on tightly to this key.  The key to experience life in it’s abundance the way the Lord intended from the beginning.  My spirit is excited for the adventure and revelation ahead.  Thank you Lord for your unfailing love for me and never giving up on me.  Thank you that your love surpasses everything in my life and you bring everything to pass in it’s perfect time.  Thank you for such a time as this.  Here am I Lord, I am all yours!

 

 

 

Disciple The Nations (The Final Message)

Posted in Adventure, Africa, Healing, Journey, Love, Miracles, Missions, Photography, Travel, Unreached People on June 19, 2008 by Heiko & Anita in Africa

A Double Portion of God’s Love Poured Out

It is our last night with the young men.  If you count Sasha, Virginia, a UK missionary and myself, then tonight Sasha’s wish of each of us having 12 disciples came to pass.  There were 24 of us this night.   I had miraculously managed to find them all a bible by tonight.  For the first time they all had one with their very own name written in it. 

 

I prayed and worshiped all day.  I wanted tonight to be really special for these guys.  I spent hours of my day baking a chocolate cake and I prepared cola flavored water.  But my heart was saddened.  I did not want this to be the last night.  I wanted to stay here forever and watch these young men continue to be transformed into men of God. 

 

This morning I had a vision of all of the guys singing and dancing.  That is my most favorite thing to experience in Africa.  To dance among the indigenous and listen to the power in their voices worshiping God.  It is a completely uninhibited sound and feeling of worship I have never experienced in America.  I must say this is one of the things that keep my soul longing to be in Africa. 

 

Last night after bible study I had to pull aside some of the problematic troublemakers, rebuke them and encourage them to walk in a righteous path.  I felt bad about it afterward, especially because this was not how I wanted to end my time here.  Then the Lord very sternly reminded me that He disciplines those He loves.  Then I felt peace about it.   My hope now was that they would still come to the final meeting and celebrate with us.

 

They did come and Sasha and I spoke to the group to encourage them all that God had a purpose and a plan for their lives and to never lose hope but keep their eyes set on Jesus; and dream Big.  Then we had prayer and shared the cake I made for them. 

 

We dished it out and there was a small piece left.  We handed the plate to the young man who had been stepping up in leadership.  All of the guys surrounded him and in a matter of seconds the plate that was once covered in a layer of frosting now looked like it had been washed clean.  Sasha and I stood in amazement and laughed.

 

We then all gathered in a circle and started to worship.  The guys took turns leading in song and dance and we all gathered in.  We had so much fun, I did not want it to stop.  I just imagine this is how worship is in Heaven and I could feel the Lord smile down on us from above. 

 

The night was coming to a close and Sasha and I stood in the middle of the circle as the guys prayed over us.  Afterwards we had to say goodbye to the guys.  The young man that was stepping into leadership asked us if we could tell the group he wanted to start assisting with the teaching.  A guy from the UK had arrived a few days earlier and said we could pass the torch off to him while he was here.  So we informed the group they would both be taking over the bible study group.  The guys started to oppose their peer but he stood firm and told me he would teach even if only one showed up.  I was very proud of him and I trust the UK missionary will teach him how to walk in the shoes of a leader through the Holy Spirit.  I can’t wait to find out what happens.

 

As I was about to say my last goodbyes I began to fight back the tears.  In that moment I said to the Lord, “Lord I would give up all my dreams, my desires, my life, joyfully, rejoicing, if only you would let me stay here and show your love to these young men so they can change this nation.”  That was the cry of my heart and I meant it with all my heart, my entire mind, and all my spirit.  I would give everything to stay here with them and pour out God’s love. 

 

Then the Lord spoke to me.  He reminded me that my prayer from before I arrived here was to experience a double portion of His Love.  He said, “This is My double portion, my pure heart, and I am pouring it out and giving it to you, this is what it feels like.  When you can lay down your life willingly with a joyful heart, mind and spirit, for the life of another.  This is my true heart and love and I am imparting it to you.  You will always know whom I have called you to by this outpouring of my love.  You will experience this with each one I send you to reach.  And you will impart my love to them through My Holy Spirit.” 

 

I was completely wrecked.  The pain I felt in my heart to leave these guys that I loved more than my own life…I just don’t have words to express what I felt in that moment, even now.  All I know is that I have been gloriously wrecked.  I am not the same person.  In an instant I am the remains of a person who has seen a glimpse of the Father.  My life will never again be my own.  I give it all to Him to do with as He pleases.  I will go anywhere and do anything He asks of me if only I can experience more of this flesh shattering love.  Everything else seems so meaningless.  Only His love has meaning.  Meaning that those who have had a glimpse of the Father can truly understand.

 

With His pure love the Heavens open up and the supernatural becomes the natural and the world as we know it slowly begins to fade into the landscape.  On earth as it is in Heaven becomes manifest where we can access it through the guidance of Holy Spirit.  My hunger and thirst has just become even more unquenchable.  Thank you Abba Father for your pure love, for drawing near to me as I draw near to you.  For answering my prayer and teaching me that your ways are so much higher than my own.  I will chase after you all the days of my life until I can finally be held in your arms. Nothing else matters more.  Here am I Lord, I am all yours, do with me, as you will.  Amen.

 

Tomorrow is my last day here before I journey to Zambia on my next mission.  I can feel in my spirit something powerful is going to happen tomorrow.  With a very humble heart and extreme anticipation I wait for tomorrow to come…for Holy Spirit to come and to answer my second prayer when I arrived here, that I may have the key to access the Kingdom of Heaven while I am here on earth…in faith I believe He will answer…so in anticipation I wait for tomorrow to come…

A very cool thing happened when we began these studies.

(Here is a passage from Sasha’s journal):

At the end of one of our teachings, we broke off into three small groups to pray.  One of the guys who is quiet and we don’t know too well yet, said that he had seen an Angel and had a message to share with us.  He spoke through a translator and said to Anita: “I saw an Angel stand before you and he looked into my eyes. As I looked into the angel’s eyes, the angel said to me: The Holy Spirit is with these girls.  God has given these white women the teachings in their hands. The angel instructed me that all of us guys should listen to what you have to say because He had given you the words to speak and poured into your hands all the teachings that you would impart to us.  The angel told me that the time is short so it is very important that we listen to all the words that you girls have to say because you will have to leave soon.”

In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people.  Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.  Even on my servants, both men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy.” (Acts 2:17-18).